Hello my lovely bloggy friends,
I had to remind myself today what my blog is about.
It’s “A place where I can be me!”
So I’m going to share this here and it will explain a little bit more about the Alienhippy.
I go to a traditional Church, but I don’t consider myself traditional.
I do find the routine quite helpful with my Aspieness. I have tried to be traditional, to fit in, but to be perfectly honest I find trying to fit in WAY too draining. So now when I’m at Church I do what helps me or I don’t feel like going.
I find with my Aspergers that most GOOD sermons can be totally overwhelming. I find I record them in my head and then beat myself up with them trying to remember everything the Vicar said and how he said it. What he actually meant and what God was trying to say to me. Did I get it all or as usual miss the most important bits…..giggle.
For a while, I had a big break from Church
God taught me through ways that were best for me. He reached me through animals, nature and children. I do however see a need to be part of a fellowship. To break bread with other believers.
Taking notes is my best way of coping.
Everything that I hear as helpful to myself I write down for my own personal Bible study. This I have at home in my own environment where I can be totally myself.
I get quite a few funny looks having a note pad and Bible open in the Church that I attend.
Think Songs of Praise…BBC, and you will understand why!
It’s only a small congregation and as well as my note taking I KNOW I’m a fidget. 🙂
But you know…I’m totally over it!
And it’s the best Church I have found for me so far.
I know God knows me, accepts me and totally loves me….so everyone who thinks I’m a little strange, eccentric or from a fundamentalist background can think what they want.
What I got from the Easter message.
Please remember that these are just my own personal notes to help me.
The Gospel reading was from John 20:1-18.
Our Vicar started his sermon explaining about a maze he and his young daughter got lost in. It was made of hedges and he thought he’d be able to complete it in no time at all. He was wrong and got totally confused and lost all sense of direction.
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This is taken from my notes.
This is just a small amount of my original notes.
I don’t feel that I want to share everything.
I’m sure you all will understand that.
Jesus used those who had an open heart.
He used those who no one listened to, those of disgrace.
He used those who were despised and rejected.
What is my response to the Risen Jesus?
Do I want to seek the will of God for my life?
Then I need to ask and let God filter in.
God wants to help me, not judge me, we are all His children.
He already knows that I’m not going to be perfect.
All the bad things, they happened to Jesus too!
I can enter into them with God and find a way through.
Or…I can chose to walk away from them.
The choice is mine, I have been given free will.
If I chose to face them, I chose to go to my own personal Jerusalem.
To drink my own cup, and to carry my own cross.
I also then need to walk into the empty tomb believing.
Not stand outside wondering….. or in fear.
No….I need to walk in with faith and trust, believing in the deep mystery of Christ.
Being inspired by the empty tomb.
As Christians we are fascinated by the empty tomb.
The resurrection is in our lives.
We carry His unconditional love and ultimate sacrifice in our hearts.
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Ok….this is what I will be pondering on this week. This will cut down on the many, many loops that could have come from it. Writing down what is relevant to me slows down my thinking and also stops me recording everything. I trust that God opens my ears to what I need to hear.
To finish this off I just have to add my FAVOURITE and most inspiring visual.
I think I’ve used it before, but I don’t care, I just LOVE it!
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