Couldn’t let today go by without reposting this old poem from 2010
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Looking Forward not back!
by Alienhippy
If I had a time machine, where would I go in time?
It’s quite simple really, I’d go back to 1969
I would befriend my own Mother at the age of 19
She’d be pregnant with me, my face yet unseen
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I wouldn’t tell her who I was, but…I’d tell her I’m an Aspie
I’d tell her about the problems my Aspie life has dealt me
She wouldn’t have a clue, but her nature would be loving
I saw her heart and will to learn each day as I was growing
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I saw how her personality would really confuse my Dad
His inability to socialise made him get really mad
But he couldn’t express in words or write how he felt down
So…we would catch the aftermath of his Autistic meltdown
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I’d explain to my Mom the importance, to be aware of what is the trigger
I’d mention about the damage done, when hearing people snigger
I’d talk to her about how things were, when I was just a teen
So she could be aware of reasons I go off into daydreams
I’d tell her what objects she needs to hide, alert her to my depressions
Be aware of all the times and why I skived off so many lessons
I’d tell her about my dyslexia, so she’d get me the help I’d need
She’d find a way to help me cope and maybe learn earlier to read
She’d then understand that I’m not shy, just fearful of rejection
She’d learn to broaden my horizon, not smother me with over protection
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But if I had a time machine and I went back in time
I’d change the person that I am…this life would not be mine
All the stuff I’m learning the things I share with friends
The loving strength I feel inside as God helps me to mend
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All the memories God can use the bad ones and the good
Would not be mine, I’d not be me, so I don’t think I should
Even think about a time machine, because now God helps me see
That His plan is I’m an Aspie and I can help by just being me
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