I simply say, “Fishes”

I feel a coldness touch my skin as I press my nose against the glass, palms spread and fingers reaching. I stare deeply into the rippling water. Bubbles emerging through the gravel, they dance their merry lift, fascinating and capturing my all. I see light, so much light, reflected from each tiny shimmering sphere as they are birthed through the air stone. They saunter their way with or without connection, I feel lifted with their rising. Speed slowed right down with their weave through the waves.

My concentration is broken as a large Angelfish swims past my face. Again it’s the reflections of light coming from each individual scale. A whole rainbow of colour calling to me. Shimmering essence of living light reflected through a flowing stream. I follow my new friend, my face remains pressed against the coolness, feeling the vibration of the constant flow of water. This cycling hum and trickle I find so soothing, blocking out all other noise and gaining my full attention.

The Angel won’t keep still she is trying so hard to reach a tiny brown worm that is hidden beneath a piece of bogged wood. I watch her swimming back and forth, back and forth trying every angle to reach her food. In my heart I am willing her on, explaining to her in my mind what she needs to do. The light reflects and watching her shine makes me happy. She finally squeezes her slender frame horizontally under the wood reaching her well earned prize. My heart smiles.

I am drawn again back to the rising lights in their thousands. All is calm and I feel alive and comforted in all I absorb. Then a voice and a gentle touch. I feel my Mom lovingly stroke my hair and she asks me, “What have you been staring at for so long?” I am six years old and don’t have the words so I simply say, “Fishes.”

I love this video and this song is so perfect to go with this post

This post was written from a memory

The fish tank belonged to my Uncle and was built into the wall dividing his living room from his dining room. I have always loved fishes.

Love and hugs. Lisa. xx 🙂

I simply say, “Fishes”

I feel a coldness touch my skin as I press my nose against the glass, palms spread and fingers reaching. I stare deeply into the rippling water. Bubbles emerging through the gravel, they dance their merry lift, fascinating and capturing my all. I see light, so much light, reflected from each tiny shimmering sphere as they are birthed through the air stone. They saunter their way with or without connection, I feel lifted with their rising. Speed slowed right down with their weave through the waves.

My concentration is broken as a large Angelfish swims past my face. Again it’s the reflections of light coming from each individual scale. A whole rainbow of colour calling to me. Shimmering essence of living light reflected through a flowing stream. I follow my new friend, my face remains pressed against the coolness, feeling the vibration of the constant flow of water. This cycling hum and trickle I find so soothing, blocking out all other noise and gaining my full attention.

The Angel won’t keep still she is trying so hard to reach a tiny brown worm that is hidden beneath a piece of bogged wood. I watch her swimming back and forth, back and forth trying every angle to reach her food. In my heart I am willing her on, explaining to her in my mind what she needs to do. The light reflects and watching her shine makes me happy. She finally squeezes her slender frame horizontally under the wood reaching her well earned prize. My heart smiles.

I am drawn again back to the rising lights in their thousands. All is calm and I feel alive and comforted in all I absorb. Then a voice and a gentle touch. I feel my Mom lovingly stroke my hair and she asks me, “What have you been staring at for so long?” I am six years old and don’t have the words so I simply say, “Fishes.”

I love this video and this song is so perfect to go with this post

This post was written from a memory

The fish tank belonged to my Uncle and was built into the wall dividing his living room from his dining room. I have always loved fishes.

Love and hugs. Lisa. xx 🙂

Silent Sunday (Fishes)

Jack, the keeper of my marbles.

No… I haven’t lost my marbles, I keep them with the fishes. 😉

We bought a new fish tank today

Mr Locoman dropped the telephone onto Jack’s bubble bowl and smashed it to pieces. Poor Jack ended up flapping around on the carpet and was not too happy having to spend time in a washing up bowl. *CAL was not too happy about it either she loves her goldfish.

He is a happy fishy now in his hexagonal, very retro, funky, hippy fish tank. He even has his own disco ball look. What a cool Alienhippy fishy he is… 😉

A day with photos

Hello my lovely bloggy friends

Today was the first day of a week off school…YAY!!!

I find life so much easier when I can plan my own Aspie brain and do things at my own pace.

So, I just LOVE the school holidays

My Aspie kids both function so much better without the mental strain and over stimulation of the social atmosphere of school environment.

*CAL got herself up, washed and dressed. She got her own breakfast and organised her own activities for the morning.

She even remembered we had plans for the afternoon.

I will just explain the difference

On a school day she is shutdown most mornings and so drained from the day before. I have to tell her what to do one thing at a time.

She has picture lists everywhere in our home to prompt her memory. So she can manage to do the normal everyday things.

Our plan for our afternoon

We had planned to go to McDonalds for lunch and then go and buy fish food for Jack and Roger (*CAL’s pet Goldfish) from the local pet store. Also we needed to pick up a few things from a local shop.

When we got to our local McDonalds it was totally packed.

The queue for the drive thru was even worse. I didn’t fancy it one bit, so I knew my *CAL would not cope well.

First of all she only really likes to sit at one particular table.

Secondly there were a lot of kids her age in groups and with this she will always hide.

I sat and chatted with her in the car

She said she didn’t fancy the noise so I made a decision to drive further out towards a different district. I knew this would be strange for her but I felt it would be easier on her sensory. Plus there is an aquatic centre near to it and this McDonalds has been  newly refurbished. There are also a few shops where I could get the things I needed .

She loved the new McDonalds, WHY???

It was FUNKY and very colourful.

After walking around with a tray full of food a few times she picked this table.

(Sorry for the quality of the photos, I used my mobile, I didn’t have my camera)

We then popped to a few shops. *CAL decided she quite liked the idea of keeping a journal. She picked this one and a pack of multi coloured gel pens. She said she could use which colour suited her mood. I thought this was such a clever idea.

New hat and gloves, she has always had a thing about hats, right since she was a little toddler.

Then we went and had a look at new carpet, we need new carpet EVERYWHERE….ugh

The building work we had done and the constant traffic of builders boots caused quite a few marks.

*CAL really likes this red carpet, I get the feeling her room is going to be brighter than McDonalds.

I just love going to the Aquatic centre, I find the whole atmosphere very relaxing and could spend all day there looking at the different kinds of fish. After doing the shopping it was so wonderful to relax my brain in this environment. The sound of the water and the gracefulness of the fishes swimming just calms ALL of my loops right down.

Emperor Angelfish (Pomacanthus imperator)

Common Clownfish (Amphiprion ocellaris)

Lionfish (Pterois volitans)

*CAL LOVES the pond fish, and this indoor pond fascinated here. She played quite happily with this plastic duck getting the Koi Carp and Sturgeon to come up to the top. Some of these fish where massive.

So that has been our afternoon.

The great thing is while I was chatting fishes with one of the assistants he mentioned that the Aquatic centre has not long opened a sister branch within a development. He gave me the details, it’s not far out and it’s perfect for a cheap day trip. Just read how perfect it is for the Alienhippy. There is even something for Mr Locoman.

Within our superb development, stretching over 20 acres and incorporating 90,000 square feet under cover, is one of the largest garden centres in the UK, a vast aquatic area, pet shop, shopping arcade, cafe and miniature railway – there really is something for everyone!

Doesn’t that sound just perfect!

I can’t wait to go….hehe

It started with a fish.

It started with a fish.

I won a fish on the ‘hook a duck’ at the fun fair, I was 5 years old. My brother won one too, Mom put them both in one of those 1970’s over sized brandy glasses. We called our fishes, Tom and Jerry.

For my 10th Birthday
The present I wanted the most, I got.

My first Aquarium.

I kept cold water fishes and they gave me a place to stare, I found the movement of the water through the filtering system extremely calming, and I knew each of my fishes and how they responded. My aquarium was in my bedroom it acted as a night light and the soothing sound of filtering water helped me to drift off into sleep.

When I moved into my own flat at the age of 18, I still had this fish tank and I started my first tropical aquarium. I had been wanting to do this for years, but Mom and Dad would only let me have cold water fishes.

I started with easy to keep fish in a community tank, Guppies, Mollies, Zebra Danios, Neon tetras and some smaller variety of Gourami.

MY ONE BOOK

At this age I was fascinated by all the varieties

The different names and how to keep these beautiful creations alive. I learnt about water values and how to test for nitrates. I learnt how to control the temperature and which fishes would breed at higher water temperatures. I knew which fish were live bearers, egg layers, egg depositors. I became obsessed with everything that my ONE book taught me.

I can see now that if someone would have taken my passion for keeping fishes at the age of 10, and used it to help me read, to help me understand science, to look at the fishes anatomy, maybe research all the different plants that I could have grown in my aquarium. My educational experience could have been so very different and such a positive one.

Oh well…such is life!!

At the age of 26, I became homeless and I was very ill with depression. I was close to breakdown and having regular suicidal thoughts. My Mom had me back home and she gave me and my 2 year old *AJ her master bedroom. She bought me a new fish tank, a bigger one, and she told me to fill it with the most beautiful tropical fishes I could find.

Doing this helped me so much and I am so grateful for the wisdom that God gave my Mom. I would go out with my boy and we would find the most amazing Aquatic centres. They always had little cafes and we had a fabulous time looking at all the wonderful fishes.

When *AJ was 9 my Mom bought him his first aquarium

He was fascinated with testing the ph and nitrate levels he also memorised names, temperatures, origins and tank types. He would talk none stop about his aquarium and his teacher was fascinated at his knowledge. I got him so many books and he read every one of them. He loved his tank so much and then one night the thermostat over heated and boiled all the fish, we came down to an awful smell. All his beautiful tropical fish were white and floating on the top of the tank. My *AJ cried his eyes out, and refused to ever talk about it.

Here is a photo of him with his first aquarium, before the boiling obviously

In the cage next to the tank is “BOB” the Gerbil, we later changed his name to “Beelze-BOB”

That Gerbil was just plain evil.

*AJ, 9 years old, with his fishes

*AJ later went on to breeding mice,

He won shows at the national mouse association. I took advantage of his “SPECIAL INTEREST” he was obsessed with mice, so I used it to teach him in SO many ways. He had to clean them out and feed them every day and he had 57 at one point.

Over the years

Me and my kids have kept fish, mice, gerbils, hamsters, rabbits, guinea pigs, chickens, ducks, quails, budgies, love birds, cockatiels, finches, cats, dogs, kakarikis, tree frogs and a snake.

We have quite a library of animal husbandry. I know that through animals I have not felt the loneliness in my life that some Aspies feel. My animals have been my friends, I have loved them and they have loved me back. They have given me friendship, companionship, many giggles….I had a Cockerel once called DUDE who would sit on my shoulder like a pirates parrot. A rabbit that came when it was called. My Kakariki loved being stroked and would call me to tell me he loved me. I had a cat called Fusspot who would regularly steal marsh mellows lick them and flick them up the wall. My dogs, cats and rabbits have given me a shoulder to cry on, and someone to talk to who is an exceptional listener, and never judgemental. My animals have brought me through tough times by being unique creations, they helped me to look to God and see Him in who they are and how they have been created.

My little *CAL looking at fish in an aquatic centre

Lost in Paint

Acrylic on Canvas (18"x24")