Start all over again.

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It has been a long time since I last posted, over a year has gone by since I last opened a new document with the intent of writing for this space that I once considered to be “a place where I can be me!”

I don’t know why so much time went by without me blogging. I thought that I might have just lost interest in expressing myself. But if I’m totally honest that’s not possible. I believe I allowed fear to creep in and there were also times I just didn’t want to share anymore. I didn’t want to find the time to do something I once loved because I felt afraid to even try. But in saying that… my blog has been in my thoughts and on my heart each and every day but the confidence to write and truly be me again had dwindled. Not a day has gone by where I haven’t thought about writing, but then I let it slip away. I didn’t push through, I found excuses and I found other things to do instead. Days rolled into weeks, months, a year it just got to the point where I felt so disconnected from blogging, and the whole blogging scene, that I didn’t know where to start.

I still don’t actually know where to start but I know that when I write – I feel connected and grounded, and when I feel this I am able to release, and through releasing I don’t feel alone in my journey and I don’t have a head full of looping thoughts. Writing helps me to be accountable for my plans and dreams, to make happen the creativity I hold inside.

So I’m starting again. I don’t know where Alienhippy is heading, I don’t know what direction to write in anymore. But that’s kind of exciting. One thing I do know is I’m going to just stick to what I know best…and what I know best is how to just keep being me.

So let’s go back to how I started this blog and why I started this blog.

Alienhippy’s Blog, “a place where I can be me!”

If you would like to catch up on our last 12 months of home education, family fun, our day trips and a whole heap of creativity you are welcome to come follow me on instagram.

Today in our home education journey we sat on a hillside and *CAL sketched the landscape while I crocheted and attempted to write a poem. My poetry will come back, I have faith in that.
Love and hugs. Lisa. x

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My inspiration this week is to be still and let God dig out my weeds of insecurity, doubt and distraction. Knowing He will plant and nurture gifts of insight, inspiration and discernment.

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A New Song

Psalm 40:3…He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God

Psalm 98:1…Sing to the Lord a new song, for he has done marvellous things

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This is a new song for me, I just can’t help myself.

It reminded me of an old poem I wrote and blogged way back when I first started blogging.

I love to sing, if you don’t then I’m sorry, but after all this is my blog,

and it is…”A place where I can be me!”

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This is the poem I spoke of

Who am I?

by Lisa Lock

Can anyone tell me who I am?

As I sit and wait to see God’s plan

Only times ticking on, and I’m getting older

My once hot faith is now growing colder

Years spent in searching

Trying to understand

Making sense of perseverance

Being guided by Gods hand

Only now I feel a nuisance

’cause it’s me who’s feeling weak

I don’t know where I’m going

I don’t know what I seek

Trying for so long to hear this nagging voice

I need a navigator to de-code me with this choice

To follow in the path the Lord wants me to take

Become Gods will for me, and not become a fake

Serenity is what I need, and not a head of chaos

Can you help me Jesus? Give me strength to bear this cross

Emotionally damaged, my life is yours, I’m waiting to see where to go

I don’t have the confidence on my own, my self-esteem is extremely low

I feel a failure most of the time

I’m negative about myself

I’m trying to reprogram how I think

It’s not good for my mental health

Still small voice, calmly speak

As your will I will seek

Be my friend as well as my Lord

As I fight the good fight

Choose to walk in your light

Be my armour

my shield

and

my sword