I created this doodle yesterday after a friend inspired me. Doodling this was like therapy for me. I combined two things that teachers had punished me for as a child. Doodling and my special interest/love of/passion for dragons and monsters.
When my sister saw this doodle she said,
“Looks like it was very relaxing to draw sis.
Scary things are looking at me!!!“
Which was just perfect. It expressed just how I felt.
The constant eyes, staring into me, causing me indescribable fear. Always watching me ready to ruler my knuckles, stand me in a corner, rip up my work. Over 30 years later and I am finally able to release this fear of wrongness. I’m glad that this doodle seems scary as that’s the emotion I was releasing.
Children and adults on the spectrum find comfort in our special interests. Yes, we can seem obsessive at times but a lot of us can learn to understand time and place. Some of us struggle to form words, especially when we are in sensory overload. Being able to express in a different way gives us the ability to communicate our discomfort. Comic strips are used a lot now with special needs children to aid social understanding.
Link here… “What is comic strip conversation?”
As a very young child I was caused fear of both my outlets, back then no one really knew what Aspergers was. I was a quiet hardworking child, with learning difficulties and I struggled to fit into school routine every day. School to me meant two things, total boredom or feeling terrified.
There are so many adults on the spectrum who still can’t find words and are still learning to communicate the best they can. If what happened to us in school, and what happened to our undiagnosed Autie/Aspie parents, was happening today….
Well it just wouldn’t be happening today, would it?
For more background on my doodles and dragons follow this link.