Today was an amazing day
I got the most wonderful gift. Not anything that can be boxed, wrapped in pretty Christmas paper with a big red bow. No, it wasn’t anything material like that. It was something much more valuable.
Today I got to see my beautiful daughter *CAL smiling and happy spending time with her cousins, all four of them.
I would love to be able to share a photo. It’s Wednesday, Wordless Wednesday, it would have been so wonderful. But out of respect for my brother and his wife I will not be sharing a photo here on my blog. I will only be sharing a memory, something for me to find on one of those days when I look back at my old posts. My brother and his wife have very fixed ideas. Believe me when I say it is just a blessing for me to have a photo of my little girl sitting with her cousins.
I don’t know when or if this will be happening again
I do know that it was totally God and the answer to a prayer. It wasn’t arranged at all, I took my *CAL for an after school, spur of the moment, treat to McDonald’s. I was amazed when my little sister turned up with her two beautiful boys *Jah (little *J) and *EJ. But both my sister and I were totally shocked when our sister-in-law walked in with both her children following.
I miss spending time with my brother but I will not pretend to be NT just to fit and be accepted. And, I certainly won’t be forcing either of my kids to conform to someone elses idea of a social norm. I love my kids exactly as they are, they are growing at their own pace and being the perfectly unique individuals they are created to be.
Today was a blessing, a small glimpse of what could be
But I will not let it haunt me and cause me to want, I will just be grateful for the memory. I believe God is in all things, all situations and all people, especially children. The smiles we saw today will not be forgotten. Not by myself, my sister and I don’t think for one minute that my beautiful niece and handsome nephew will forget easily either. I may not get to see them often and I may not be the same kind of Auntie they are used to. But I know in my heart how much I love them and I see in their eyes that they see me.
I found this poem today on a scrap of paper
I was sorting through my paperwork, a job I totally detest. I often scribble down poems and forget where I put them unless I blog them. This one was in a pile of old school letters and certificate, so it was sort of organised and in a safe place.
It seems fitting today
So I’ll share with the piece of music I was listening to when I found it.
Love and hugs friends. xx 🙂
Love Light, Shine Bright
Crushed heart? Mocked spirit? Hidden light?
Don’t go there gentle child
All lies upon lies that feed your mind
None of them truth but silent teases
Empty out these thoughts, those taunts
And breathe in them never more
Cleansed in a sacrificial love
Your walk pleasing your heart is filled
Your soul lifted and daily bathed in grace
Shine and be all that you are
This slate has been washed clean
Now let there be a you in this world
Do not doubt and hide your face
Wrapping yourself in invisible blacks
Instead let this love light shine so bright
Giving heart to those who pass
Let your light shine bright before you, before all
Seeing worth, knowing truth, giving hope
And praise your Father in heaven