Hello my lovely bloggy friends,
I have had quite a few loops going over the last few days and to be quite honest I haven’t felt up to reading or commenting much. I am still stuck for words at the moment so if you are waiting for a reply to a comment, email or facebook message please be patient.
My last post was about me venturing off around bloggyland and feeling quite hurt by some fellow Aspies and how I found a few who were very negative about anyone NOT Aspie.
There was another thing that upset me
I left a comment on a blog and then a more educated Aspie also left a comment and I felt this particular blogger undermined what I said.
I faced a lot of teasing at school because of not being able to read well. Also I got things wrong, a lot of the time, because the teachers didn’t explain in a way that I needed. I can’t read the books to learn about Aspergers because my dyslexia causes a wall. I don’t claim to be an expert in anything. I’m still learning how to be myself. I only comment when a post touches my heart, so this has been quite upsetting for me.
It really hurt that someone with the same condition as myself would do this. It has also made me quite fearful of leaving comments. This and everything else I have been dealing with in my life has caused me to shutdown over the last couple of days. I only feel able to comment on blog posts of my close friends as I know they will protect me.
As a child when I felt overwhelmed
I lined up my collections, did my sticker books or would sit spinning my ball bearings around on my tray. I still have this need but what I do now is get lost in films, make fractals or stare at my photo collection while listening to music.
My newest collection is my collection of clouds.
I love clouds they make me smile, I only take these photos with my mobile as I am going about my day. So, I thought as I don’t really have much of anything to share I would share my clouds and a new song that has helped me to accept that this is who I am, God is in control and I will come through this.
Love and hugs.
Lisa. xx 🙂