I was very inspired by the title of a post by Suzanne Burgos today, so I went with it and wrote out my thoughts.
I can’t always read people well,
I want to be friends with everyone but I know that I talk too openly with friendly people. I can’t gauge them well and I can’t always read the signals. I talk about things that most people are not interested in, and when I start talking about God, I find it very hard to stop. I get excited about my faith even though I know that I bore people with this, but I can’t always see when I’m doing this.
This is where blogging is great,
In fact writing is great! What I write can be read in small doses, so I am not overwhelming people or getting on their nerves. People who want to read, read…and those who don’t, don’t.
I think recently I have been feeling…
That because I’m an Aspie and find certain things hard to do, I am letting my kids down. That if I was Neurotypical I could help them to socialise better and go to places to help desensitise them without me experiencing sensory overload. I have found myself cramming everything I can into my head in the hope that I might be able to stop my kids from feeling like Aspies. Trying to make it better for them, than it has been for me.
But I realised this morning that they are always going to feel like themselves.
They are Aspies, but first they are themselves. Being on the spectrum is only part of who they are, it’s only part of who I am too.
We can’t change the way this world is,
However, we can learn to rise above the way some people treat us. Also we can learn to step out of our own perception and look in at what really is going on. Not the emotional response but the logical one once the emotion has passed and the calm has come…I made up a word for this sometime ago. I wrote a poem about it too…I call it “snocalmelatus” I do really like my Lisa lingo it’s part of me, part of who I am, a way of me understanding.
We misunderstand a lot.
We all do, both NT’s and ASD’s…we are human none of us are perfect, but we are all unique and we are all special.
We are all created to be and to become and the best way of finding joy is to live life fully being the creation of self.
Seeking out peace and finding those little glimpses of Heaven that we see in the places and people that precious moments can reveal.
We see these when we open our eyes and our hearts to new possibilities.
We are like Butterflies and Bubbles
We are all floating and flittering through life, some of us are bubbles trying to be butterflies and some of us are butterflies trapped inside bubbles. The beauty is to see the Spectrum of Rainbows through it all. Growing and changing, being recreated in our being as life unfolds, and the deep mysteries of God are unravelled before each of us.
We are all like Butterflies and Bubbles!
Love, hugs, blessing and peace to you all. xx 🙂