Hello my lovely bloggy friends,
I have been in a quiet place over the last few days, yes I did shutdown for a while but rather than fight it I allowed myself to be. I prayed and did all the things that came to me to do. Yes I paced quite a lot, I stimmed a bit, I rocked and I cried. I believe we find healing in tears.
When the tears stopped,
I felt peaceful within myself, and as I was lifted from the pit I found new energy. I still don’t know what brought on the shutdown. I suspect it was an over stimulation of emotion. Also pushing myself to do everything that needed to be done while my brain was looping on something else. I became drained.
One of the things that helps me is my Art,
The problem with this, when I have already shutdown is… I just haven’t got the effort to set up my easel and paints.
Also I really can’t bear the thought of the mess I know I will ABSOLUTELY make.
In this frame of mind I can’t see past how I’m feeling and don’t see that I will find peace in my concentration.
This is why I am now teaching myself to withdraw and allow myself to be.
I have found that I come through my shutdowns so much quicker than if I try to fight them.
What I find BRILLIANT is digital art,
It is not AT ALL messy, it is such a release for me. I can put my music on and create fractals and it’s so like swirling paint.
The thing I love most about painting is watching the colours mix and create little worlds of expression all of their own.
I love abstract and love finding the connections hidden in the meanings of the creation.
So here are the fractals I have made over the last few days as a gallery.
I shared a few two days ago with a piece of classical music. I also shared a video I made of some of these fractals on my other blog….“Listening through the Loops” I enjoyed making that video it was a lot of fun.
Well I hope you like my fractals, it’s all I have to share at the moment.
Love and hugs.
Lisa. xx 🙂