Hello my lovely bloggy friends
Well, I have had an interesting day today, and I haven’t even left the house.
My car battery has died on me again….ugh
When I say interesting I mean I have spent most of my day fighting off all my negative loops.
I have noticed that when I am without a car, my thoughts can become quite down.
I think driving helps my thoughts to switch off. I have noticed that when I drive and listen to music I don’t really have to listen to all the loops. It’s very similar to when I was a kid and I played video games constantly.
Does anyone remember
That post I wrote back in September about my gaming addiction…giggle
I had such a laugh reading that today…That is SO VERY sad really isn’t it, laughing at your own post.
Oh well …that’s me I’m afraid, I very often giggle myself stupid while writing them, can you tell?
Here is the link if you don’t remember it or if you are a new reader.
Well anyway, I feel that driving my car, listening to music and having my own space gives me what I need to sort out my head.
It has the same effect as the video games I played as a teen.
So what did I do to overcome the negativity today….giggle
Are you ready for this great enlightenment …Oh Padawan???
This will possibly change your life forever, you know!
I mean I am just so super spiritual and so in tune with who I am…lmho
Right I will stop delaying and tell you now.
Before you all explode with anticipation at this amazing discovery.
May the force be with you!!!!!
Well here it is…..I got so depressed I fell asleep for 3 hours. Hmmmmmm
That’s right……… I AM HUMAN!!!!
I did pray before I fell asleep though, and woke up with a new understanding of myself.
Here it is…
I pray and pray and pray some more,
I forget to receive God’s love and then walk around beating myself up somewhat senseless sometimes.
The good thing is I can laugh about this now, because I understand this about myself, and I know God loves me.
I was thinking about that Haiku I wrote on THIS post.
The one about the Goldfish…..
Fishes in a bowl
Stagnating in their own crap
Need to clean them out
I was chatting with my close friend today about all the crap that I have lost motivation to sort out.
She prayed with me and I love that she does this. It helps me so very much.
I also spoke with her about how I feel that I am not living each day to the full, if I am constantly looking back and trying to hold on to happy memories, and times where I have felt accepted.
This is how that Haiku helped me…
I imagined myself as a little Goldfish, so used to my own Goldfish bowl and stagnating in my own crappy water.
I have seen what happens to *CAL’s Goldfish when they are in dirty water the just hang around the top of the bowl gasping for fresh oxygen.
I can feel a bit like that sometimes. Can anyone relate to this??
Well that was exactly the motivation I needed to kick my bottom into gear, I managed to fill 4 black sacks with stuff I don’t need any more. They will be going to the charity shop first thing Monday morning.
Yes I’m an Aspie and I collect, but I am also a Christian and God gives me what I need to feel whole.
He turned the tap on and I now have fresh water.
I am going to learn to live and enjoy each moment.
In the words of my little friend Dory in finding Nemo.