Hello my friends in bloggyland,
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. I am going to share some photos with you but first I’m going to babble for a bit. I woke up in a babbling mood today and I think I understand why.
Now I could be totally wrong, I’m only guessing at this you understand… and I will also have to use some Lisa Lingo as I don’t ever remember any of the proper names for all my many Autistic traits. But those who love and understand me will not mind at all. Everyone else feel free to click on another blog…I have some wonderful blogs in my blogroll, pick one of those.
Ok then…who’s left reading, thank you for sticking with me…lol
The build up of Christmas madness, all the rushing around, the extra noise of so many people.
Routines changing, having to remember to do so much that is not part of my usual day.
All of my rituals and routine behaviours having to be put aside.
Also having to remember to not change to much around *CAL and *AJ.
Extra visitors turning up, neighbours popping around with cards.
Visiting people who really don’t understand me or my kids AT ALL!!!
The word ASPERGERS flying around but no-one really caring, it’s Christmas why would they want to even think that ASPERGERS is real.
BUT….it affects my life and the life of my family.
Or, more to the point…ignorance towards Aspergers affects our lives.
We try so hard to fit with everyone else’s ways. But some people chose to talk over the top of anything that is a little different. I think this must helps them to carry on in their own way.
I have found myself having to be so quiet around certain people when I have just wanted to scream at their ignorance and lack of empathy…EMPATHY…HA!
OH YES…..I FORGOT.
ASPIES DON’T UNDERSTAND EMPATHY DO THEY???
SO WHY DOES IT BOTHER ME THAT I SEE IT THEN???
IF I DON’T UNDERSTAND IT…..Errrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!
Right I have got that out of my system now…time to move on.
Boxing Day…I have been on edge all day
In fact I have been writing for a lot of the day because it calms me. The time I haven’t been writing I have been talking none stop to my sister, she was also talking none stop…she’s an Aspie too.
I think we have held it together quite well all considered.
My most major brain freeze seems quite funny now…
I was so caught up in my frantic thought loop of Christmas shopping madness and all that this entails, I forgot to defrost the turkey.
I had visions of doing a Mr Bean and squashing it into the microwave on defrost.
The thought of visiting various member of family, both mine and the hubs, took me to a whole new level of stim and pace.
Thank goodness for my new Blackberry and toy robots.
Me and *CAL just lost ourselves in cyberland, and left them to it.
So yes….I think meltdown can occur differently for me now I’m an adult and I have learned to conform.
I remember my Dad used to say that me and my brother did a lot of boxing on Boxing Day. This was probably us trying to make sense of our own understanding of the Aspie none stop thinking, that goes on constantly. That… with Christmas madness on top, complete strangers suddenly being jolly and the overwhelming effect of new toys and having to make room by getting rid of faithful old friends, was all just a little too much. Boxing Day was always the day for a meltdown when I was growing up.
MELTDOWN…a word used so often in the Autistic community
But… when I was a kid I was just having a tantrum. How VERY different they are!!!!!
I wonder how many more undiagnosed Aspie/Auties are having a Boxing Day tantrum. Not understanding that they are just releasing all the stress from all that this world has made of Christmas.
It’s funny to think that Jesus was born in a stable, I should think it was nice and calm there with the Oxen and the Donkey, and a few Sheep that the Shepherd brought with them.
Oh well…I have managed 41 Christmases, I have learned a lot about myself this year and I am starting to see how I can make things easier.
I’m shopping on line next Christmas….lol
I’m sharing this video because it makes me giggle.
My turkey defrosted in time and our Christmas dinner was wonderful