The following is a comment response I made to another Aspie, it is also the answer to my post called;
My question to my fellow Aspie was how she managed to watch or read anything negative, had she found a way of filtering.
She hadn’t and this causes her distress as she can become obsessed on the negative. I thought her very brave to answer my question so openly.
As I wrote my response to her I thought this is actually quite interesting for those trying to understand how our aspie brains think.
So welcome inside my head….watch you don’t get lost….lmho
I know myself how hard it is to break from an obsession, I find having an interest helps. I paint and write and this brings me through it. Having a faith helps with this too.
I have to control all input, this means I can’t allow myself to be exposed to too much negativity. My mind is a constant loop of video footage. I have to be careful what I film because it will cycle for days. Which will cause me to obsess on it. Negative thoughts are very strong, I find the only way through them is prayer.
I was hoping you would have an answer and I’d be able to read a newspaper or watch/listen to the news. I might have a clue what is going on in the world then. Some of my relatives and people that know me tell me I live in Teletubbyland. They think it’s funny to ask me questions about stuff going on, that they know I won’t have a clue about. They get a lot of pleasure out of making me look stupid. I tend to avoid these people now. The people that love me protect me from this. My sister will tell me and write lists of things I need to know. Simply things like who the prime minister is, or what benefits are being cut. Last week it was the post office got done over.
In the past when I have watched the news, to try to fit. I got to the point where I was afraid to leave my home. I then became obsessed on housework in a very unhealthy way. I am actually afraid of housework now, I have to have a routine with this or I do stupid things like clean light bulbs, daily with essential oils.
Reading is hard for me because of my dyslexia, but I find that it helps filter what’s negative because I only really manage to read the first 2 paragraphs of most posts. I find that if a post is negative my dyslexia kicks in and the post become impossible to carry on with. I think my dyslexia is a blessing from God now as it helps me to function.
What I have learnt over the last four and a half months is by just being myself and accepting my Aspergers as part of me, I have become more confident. It has not been easy coming out with this to people who have known me for year. However the people who genuinely care about me have stuck with me and accepted that I am on a journey.
SO………………..This worlds negativity is being turned upside down by this Aspie.
AND………………My God given ASPIE-NESS is being used and not hidden. Thank you God. x
I am a new creation, I no-longer wear black or look at the floor,
Here is some CURIOUS GEORGE….I love Curious George
he is so very cute.